Vijaya Sundaram

Poet, Musician, Teacher, and Amateur Visual Artist

Afternoon-Flight

Afternoon-Flight
©August 4th, 2016

By Vijaya Sundaram

Flash of blue sails across sun-drenched air.
Japanese maple stands, glad to receive bird
With open branches and dappled leaves.
Glints of gold on green and flutter of leaf and feather
Gently open my tight-breathing heart,
With its Elsewhere just a step away,
And pour in peace.

Blue-jay, harsh of voice, but oh, so grateful
For air and light and shelter!
Traffic sounds from far away, a soft reminder
Of human time.

But why remember it?
Time is a thief.
Human time is bondage time.
Bird-time is peace.
And tree-time, endless.

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Where Have All the Flowers Gone?
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PHOTO PROMPT – © J Hardy Carroll

Where Have All the Flowers Gone?

© November 15th, 2015

By Vijaya Sundaram

Genre: Realistic Fantasy Death-Fiction

Word Count:  100 words of text exactly

So much sorrow in the world, so much war, so many dead!  All that waste, all those fathers gone, those flowers with their heads in the dust make me thirst for life.

I sit day after day in this cemetery, not because I love death, but because I mourn life.  I tend to the graves of those whose families have forgotten them.  That woman and her child over there come every day.  They are beautiful, enshrouded in mystery.

The woman looks up, sees me, pales.

I try to send reassurance her way.  My scythe gleams.

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With thanks, as always, to our Fairy Blog-Mother, Rochelle Wisoff-Fields, for being a lovely host to all of us who write as Friday Fictioneers, and to J. Hardy Carroll for that touching photograph.
I type this at my brother’s home in New Delhi, India.  I’ll be leaving to go back to Pune, India, where my mother lives, to spend the rest of the following week there.  Back in the US on the 23rd.  Missing you all.  Sorry about not being able to comment much — Internet connectivity is an issue.

Not When Pigs Fly (My Day 6 Chiasmus-“Found” Poem – using “Face.”)

I have NEVER done “Found Poetry,” nor have I ever attempted chiasmus as a device, although I knew of it, and had encountered it.  It seems that these days I’m doing things that  I’ve never attempted.  In any case, today’s (Day 6) assignment, in brief, was:

Create a “found poem”

Make it about “faces”

Use “chiasmus.”

I’ve typed up the text of my found poem, which I assembled from tea-bag covers, junk mail, an art catalogue, and a plastic bread-bag.  Not having a working camera currently, I took an awkward picture with my MacBook Pro’s PhotoBooth.  So, the picture below looks, let’s face it, bad and blurry.  However, I shall remedy that when I can get a clearer image with a working camera.  In any case, here’s the image, and then, my typed-up text below it, for those who cannot discern the words.

(Oh, and I was thrilled to FIND my chiasmus in the process of looking for words!  The first line occurs on line 10 (after the heading, which is “Not When Pigs Fly”):  The Power of each woman’s face.  The second part of the chiasmus occurs as the punchline, the end:  “Face each woman’s POWER.”)

Vijaya Sundaram - Found Poetry about

Here’s the poem, in its entirety:

Not When Pigs Fly

©October 12th, 2015

By Vijaya Sundaram

We are women —

Friends of the earth,

Hope,

The People,

wise,

The Majority.

We shall converge on LITTLE DREAMS,

GIVE Clarity.

No Blisters.

Guaranteed.

VISIONS OF THE UNCANNY —

THE POWER OF each woman’s face

EXHIBITS passion,

SUPPORTS MEMORY.

SURVIVING THE ELEMENTS,

ULTRA CONCENTRATED,

OUR MUSIC ROLLS ON.

WE ARE PEACE.

WE ARE the Earth.

face each woman’s POWER!

Slingshot – Poem-Response to “Pigeon” (film by Anthony Green)

This is my second Poem-Response to “Pigeon” (film by Anthony Green)

Slingshot

©By Vijaya Sundaram

April 9th, 2013

Poor, poor bird,

Alone in the world

At the mercy of boys

With slingshots.

 

Just there,

Nowhere else to go

Nothing else to do

But just be and peck

At crumbs of mercy

Tossed its way.

Every crumb matters

Every gesture burns

As a brand in the dark.

Every act of goodness

Lasts an eternity.

 

Though the cruel day

Comes, hell-bent on

Exposure and betrayal,

Each kindness leaves

A trace.

 

And the bird survives for

Another day, another hour.

Though cruelty

Dogs its steps.

 

Every kindness brings

Life.

Every saving brings

Hope.

Every crumb brings

Fullness.

 

And somewhere,

In another world

In another time,

Those traces will come

To live and glow

Through eternity.

 

And life will take wing

In the light of peace.

And only goodness will

People that world, with

No slingshots in sight.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The End~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 

Utopia Will Exist! — A Poem

Utopia Will Exist!
©By Vijaya Sundaram
April 3, 2013

If I say so, it will be!

When society grows sick and pale
And wan with civilization,
I’ll quietly slip away, vanish
Through its revolving doors, elsewhere.

In this time and place, far away,
The deep forest grows wild outside
My door. And jasmines will bloom bright,
Moon-white, beside a silver stream.

This world will have strange and lovely
Fruit all sweet and rich and light-filled,
And swollen with the sun’s desire,
Pregnant with juice, bright, sinful, rich.

And the bees will buzz crazily,
Greedily around the flowers
Growing bright and sweet and golden
Glowing with nectar and promise.

And the heady scent of it all
Will waft dreamily through the still
Quiet air, slumbering in peace,
Languorous, sated with noon-sun.

And a dreaming child of five will
Lie on the grass beside the stream
And his hair will glow like water
While his dream-mother reads aloud.

And the world’s story will unfold
A new story never been told
And it will be gentle and good
— Wait! There’ll be a hint of chaos.

And I will step closer, impelled
By a strange force, but unwilling
To hear and listen.  But they’re here
In my own world, and how dare they?

When story-chaos enters here,
The very air will shift and change,
And turn on its hinges, away
From my world and its lulling peace.

And I will flee far from that turn,
Chase after that revolving door,
And slip away again, this time
Into a world even farther.

And I will fill this new-found world
With just a few people, and they
Will resemble no one at all
Creatures of light, of air, of song.

And we will sing those songs. We shall
Dwell in silence, and our forests
Will be deep-rooted, strong, with us
In them, singing, winging skywards.

And the air will be strung with beads
Of light, and our songs suspended
Like drops of dew upon the leaves,
While we live in unchanging bliss.

It will not bore me, and slay me
It will not, I say. I like peace
And non-action.  I like being.
And I like all that nothingness.

So, don’t entice me with chaos
Don’t bring storylines and shadows.
And say Utopia isn’t real.
It is, I say!  It exists, here!

And if I say so, it will be!

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The Red Rectangle
The Red Rectangle 
© By Vijaya Sundaram
Written on Thursday, Jan. 25th, 2006
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I am an imposter in the world of the real.

Yesterday, I went to the Institute of Contemporary Art in Boston, and had an atavistic encounter with art — in the room that contained the “red rectangle.”  I cannot remember the name of the installation artist, because my mind was busily paper-shredding all the petty numbers I had to rustle up to “feed the beast” (that remarkable phrase which my husband kindly created for me when I ranted petulantly about submitting quarterly grades for my eighth graders).  This beast demanded a sacrifice.  Numbers satisfied it.

So, there I sat on a subway train rumbling angrily through Cambridge into Boston, seated beside my Head of the Department of English, while internally stacking up inventive curses against an administration which demanded that we turn our grades in before noon on an “Early Release Day.”

The rest of the afternoon was to be a “professional day,” with the English and History departments taking a trip to the ICA.  Most of us wanted to be back at school, being PROFESSIONAL, and doing our grading without the added pressure of taking the “T” all the way to the waterfront by 12:30. p.m.  Three, tearful, silent meltdowns between school and there and out did not make me look very professional, I admit, but I didn’t care.  Weariness was hugging my bones, and exhaustion was curled up in a fetal position in my cerebral cortex, hiccuping, vibrating in my ganglions.

So, there I was at the ICA, not in the least bit in the mood for modern art, fully prepared to be cynical and criticize everything, just because … and there it was:  The Red Rectangle.

It looked kind.  I looked, hypnotized, into that glowing red rectangle, and walked towards it, thinking, “Is it real?”  It seemed to be a bi-dimensional red thing on the wall, pretending to be art.  I walked closer, impelled, in spite of myself, by its arterial redness, a translucent ruby-red, space-less projection – and bumped into a wall that stopped at my waist.

I put out my hand, thinking, “It’s not real, is it?”  My hand went through the redness, catching air, crimson air that escaped easily.  I had been expecting a wall.  Instead, beyond it was space – a red space, like a room that was hard to see.  It seemed like a cradle for a star or a planet.  It was outer space in an alternate reality.  It carried the primordial promise and message of blood.  It was a womb.  It wasn’t an angry red.  It looked peaceful.

I felt my breath turn into a many-edged diamond in my throat, crystallizing into sharp points. I looked vaguely about me, and everyone who was there seemed to recede into the far reaches of reality.

What was I doing here, on the outside?  I needed to be in there, inside, in that alternate world.  I would make my home there, in a nest of straw, a nest of dreams, and plump myself up, ruffle my feathers, stick my head in softness that was everywhere and nowhere, curl up, and fall fast asleep never to wake up for a hundred years, waking up in dream-time.  I would escape reality forever.  My home was in the land of the unreal, more real to me than this world.

The diamond dissolved.  This was home.
It would be the world of the unreal real.
I would not be an imposter there.

And I would carry that red rectangle back with me, deep within my womb back into the world of the real.

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Post-one a.m. ramblings … A Despairing Letter to the Planet

What would I like to post?

I’d like to post a letter to this planet:

Hello, Earth!  What have you been up to in the past week?

Ah yes, a meteor hit the upper atmosphere above the Urals in Russia. Tethered to the planet, we see signs of an imminent inescapable  route to extinction.  Right?  Wrong!

Okay, we are seeing the signs of a possible mass extinction.  I mean, didn’t millions die?  What’s that you say?  Oh, about 1,200 people were injured from the shock generated by it?

Regardless, I feel bad that such a thing happened, and guilty because I’m glad it didn’t happen here, or at least it hasn’t happened yet.

So, when that meteorite comes blazing out of the sky, that’s it, then.  How apocalyptic, how random, how utterly pointless to have that tangent to our circle which goes off-course!

We need a blanket that repels those visitors from our solar system, and not just the atmosphere.  Let’s create one now.  Right!

What however, if you, Earth are suffering from an auto-immune disorder known as human life?  What then?  Will we be long gone before any meteoric strikes of the truly apocalyptic variety?

Do you remember what happened in December, those events whose shock waves continued into January, O Earth?

Two terrible events came to occupy our news — on December 14th, six adults and twenty children died in an elementary school because of the unhinging of a man, and on December 16th, a twenty-three year old Indian woman was brutalized in the most horrifying way by six unhinged men.

The first event created sorrow and despair in all of us, but it wasn’t long before the crazies in the organization that aims to “protect” the Second Amendment, all stepped up with bizarre rationalizations for MORE weapons.  When that meteor came and struck, some went about, creating false myths about it, turning a blind eye to that which was under their noses.  Where did the souls of those people go?  Where has conscience fled?  Where have empathy and reason gone? Are those people who deny the massacre even human?

After the horror of the young woman’s death, India came together, and has had mass rallies, protests, clashes with the police, men and women speaking out against the blame-the-victim attitude of a male-dominated society.  Awareness hit like a shock wave, and shattered many people’s hearts.  In many Indian cities, men are becoming more aware and women are standing up for their right to be free in a fettered society, while the male-dominated Indian villages speak about pernicious Western influences and blather on about how women dress, which, they proclaim, invites their fate.  What does it take to change the minds of all people?  What MORE will it take?

Meanwhile, wars continue around the earth.  Women and children get sold into slavery, to be exploited brutally, then killed when things get complicated for the exploiters.  Young men, the best and sometimes (but not always) the brightest, push off to fight other young men, eliminating any future for either.  Greed is rampant.  Fear and hatred rule the foolish and the venal.  Everything, but EVERYTHING becomes a mind game, or worse, a game of war and peace.

And we buy, buy, buy, more and more stuff, more and more electronic and digital toys.  And somewhere in the Congo and elsewhere close by, women and children are brutalized by mercenary soldiers who wish to control the lands that contain coltan, that combination of minerals which our cell-phones and laptops need.  The gentle and the innocent, with all that potential for life, peace, hope and beauty are wiped out by greed-unhinged bestial creatures masquerading as men, while the land around them is mercilessly plundered.

Those meteors strike human lives every day, every single day.  I cannot even wrap my mind around that.

Is this the beginning of suicide of the human species?  Are we, the individual cells in the complex organism called human life, dealing with a deadly auto-immune disorder?  Are we ever going to achieve balance?  Will we see reason?  I speak not of the few and far-between, but of the whole.

I am a teacher, and I work for the cause of reason and the intellect.  I work for the cause of empathy and kindness.  I work for the cause of sharing responsibility for the planet, when I head the “Green Team” at my school, and recruit children to deal with “reducing, reusing and recycling” for the Planet.  I work to bring some measure of sanity to the insanity that afflicts my life and the lives of those I know.  (Of course, I may not always succeed, irrational and irritable that I might seem to my nearest and dearest when I am tired or sleepy, but I try, I try!)  I work to bring the beauty of language and literature into the drab vocabulary of the working world, when I teach Shakespeare, or Steinbeck, or Gaiman.  I work for the cause of creating a space for children speak their minds, and for their right to weave their emotional and aesthetic lives into their poetry in my Friday afternoon Poetry Club.  I work for the cause of right over wrong, for the cause of humanity over inhumanity within my very small milieu, when I teach about the Civil Rights Movement, and we read Melba Pattillo Beals’ book Warriors Don’t Cry, or when we study the Jewish-holocaust period in Europe.   At least, it’s something, or so I tell myself.

Today, right now, in the depths of the night, I’m not so sure.

If earth is suffering from an auto-immune disorder known as humanity, a meteoric visitor from outer space wouldn’t be a bad thing.

I’ll be all right tomorrow, I’m sure.  But today … today is all about despair.  I’m sorry!

Almost the Day of Reckoning – An Atheist’s Allegory

Almost the Day of Reckoning – An Atheist’s Allegory
©February 13th, 2013
By Vijaya Sundaram

There was a hush.

It settled over the land, a vagueness that brought a disquieting sense of menace.  A message emerged from the hush, cloaked in scarlet, masked in secrecy, outlined in ice.

The birds carried the message to creatures across  the land.  The trees leaned closer to listen, and dropped the message into their acorns.

The squirrels which picked up the acorns held them to their little furry ears and listened with alarm widening their eyes, and making their breath whistle in their tiny nostrils.  They dropped the acorns and ran.

The message burst out of the acorns, and blossomed into a cloud of pestilence, which bore these unmistakable words in  every known human language:  Death is coming to the land. Make haste and flee.  You will not escape it, but you can buy time.

Those who heard the message made haste and fled.
They rode in silver ships into the depths of the galaxy.
They dived in silver ships into the deepest abysses of the oceans.
They dug their way deep into burrows and build colonies, and lived hidden from view.

A few put on their best raiment, wrote songs and stories and poems, planted seeds in the ground, planted trees,  and waited with open eyes and unafraid hearts.

Death came, soon enough.

Arrayed in the  blackest night with nary a star to show the way, she stood, tall and terrible, and her smoky voice filled the air.

I have come, she said, for I have a mission to fulfill.  I see that the others have gone.  I shall find them soon enough.  But why and wherefore did you stay?  I do not spare souls.  It is time for all humans to be wiped out.  You are the pestilence.  You have bled the earth, and choked the air with your noxious vapors and made the mountains tremble with the sounds of war.  Why are you still here?  Why did you not buy some time, and flee from me?

A silence fell like soft fog.

Then, the oldest stepped forward. Ancient wrinkles creased her face, and her smile shone like the moon through the clouds, for though she was afraid, she was prepared.  Her heart was blameless, and she had borne the burden of her days with calm stoicism. With hair like spun silver, and a voice like the sighing of the trees, she spoke:

You may take us, but our songs fill the air.  The birds have learned them.  Our plants are growing to the rhythm of our work and our songs.  Our trees are breathing in the breath we weave into these notes.  The earth is calming herself.  For you see, we read a message within your message that blossomed scarlet and terrible from the acorns.  So, while the others fled, we knew we had a sliver of time in which we could leave behind something beyond our horrible deeds.  So, take us now.  We are not afraid.  But mind, without our songs and our working hands, the earth will forget herself and the beauty she wrought when she made us.

The earth regrets you!  spake Death, her voice shivering the air into ice, making it tremble.  She blames herself.  She rues the day that you were made.  I am her sole hope.  I will have to slay you all.

We are not afraid, murmured the assembled people, although their hearts were frozen with fear.

Death was quiet for a moment, then spoke again:

You have broken the fundamental laws of nature.  You have bled the rocks and smashed the atom for gain.  You have burned your plastics and trashed the oceans.  You have not been good stewards of the land.  You have left nothing for the generations to follow.  The daughters of your daughters of your daughters unto the seventh generation will inherit a land that is dessicated and stunted.  The sons of your sons of your,  sons unto the seventh generation will breathe (if they can still breathe) noxious vapors, and their DNA will shift and re-form into that which deforms humankind.  The birds will bear their kind with two heads, and the beasts of the field will bloat and bear monstrosities.  I shall have to slay you all.

We are not afraid, murmured the assembled people, although their souls swelled with terror.

Death looked at them, admiring the puny humans assembled, humble and unafraid of her might.

And she spake yet again, for though she was terrible, yet was she merciful.  If I let you stay a little longer, and come for you not all at once, but in stages, (for I have to come), will you restore this earth, who is my sister and your mother? she asked, and this time, her voice was the merest whisper, gentler, kinder, so that the people ceased to quake and tremble within.  Will you sing her songs?  Will you turn those swords into plough-shares, and those guns into instruments that make music?  Will you treat the animals of the land and sea,  and the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea as your brethren and your sisters? And Death paused, for she had surprised herself, and wondered at herself.

And the youngest stepped forward.  Her hair stood stiffly around her head like a halo, and her eyes were stars.  Her skin shone like copper, and her smile was radiant like the sun.  Her voice was like a bell of purest silver, and her heart was the heart of a lioness.

We shall, she said.  You must keep your promise, dear Death.  Do not strike us down in haste.  For we shall welcome you when you come in good time.  We shall not resist, as we do not resist now.

Death spake again, and she said, This shall I do for my sister, your mother, the Earth.  And this I do also, for you, unto you, that you may live and bear your children, and bring peace unto this earth.

The people murmured among themselves, and started to chant the song of peace.  And the chant swelled into a chorus that flew on the wings of birds and wafted on the waves of the seas.

And silence spread her wings and carried that song to the far reaches of the earth.

Seeing this, Death took her leave and went to find the others, for she still had a mission to fulfill, although her heart was not in it.  Yet, for all that, she was happy.

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Note: This was, at the time, an unconscious tip of the hat to Oscar Wilde’s style of writing new parables in the style of Biblical parables.  So, this is a cousin once removed (or something) in terms of style.