Vijaya Sundaram

Poet, Musician, Teacher, and Amateur Visual Artist

Brick Shift

Brick Shift
©May 20th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

You built your edifice
Brick by brick
You created the castle of you
Out of nothing, from nothing
You made your self a building
That sat on rich land, verdant
Lush with plants and trees,
Your castle housed attics and cellars,
Oh, and a damp dungeon,
Through which flowed a somnolent river,
Where you kept a sleeping creature
Fierce and fiery, long and spiny –
A creature you never visited,
But you knew lived and breathed
Down somewhere in the depths.

You built great halls and baths
Sleeping chambers, libraries
Turrets to look out from
And a moat around you.
And on the topmost tower,
You kept a phoenix, whom you loved.
Fire and water you loved,
And earth and air, too.
You fashioned for yourself
A world where they served you.

And the birds that wheeled around the tower
Sang songs and soared, but always returned,
For they were tethered to you.
Brick by brick by patient brick,
And stone and straw, too,
You built your edifice.
You saw for miles around,
You owned it all, celebrated all,
You saw that you could make your life
Whatever you wished it to be.
And so you did, so you did, for a time.

Ah, such folly!  How far can you make life
Yield to you?  How far can you shape your stones?
All one needs is one brick out of place, somewhere,
And the earth to shift beneath it all.

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In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt:  Brick

Pen-Sieve

Pen-Sieve
©May 19th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

Perfect blankness is my state
When I think about thinking,
And if I had a pensieve
Like Dumbledore,
I’d have nothing to add to it,
But thinking about not thinking
Is making me pensive.
I miss being blank,
And having thoughts
Sift through me, and out
Leaving only lumps.
Time to do something useful
Like laundry or dishes,
Or maybe brushing the dog,
So the thoughts will come
Bubbling up, and I don’t need
To feel the strain when I think,
And I’ll heft a thought easily.

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In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt:  Pensive

Wilt Thou Flourish?

Wilt Thou Flourish?
©Mary 19th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

I wilt in Winter.
When darkness tautens
Around my neck
Like a noose of gloom,
In the dead of December,
I wilt, desolate, disconsolate.
Despair and sadness, twin tight
Bands, constrict my heart.
Everything seems pointless.
Then, I breathe deeply
Watch snowflakes fall like dreams
Observe their beauty, console myself,
Remind myself that Spring
Will come again, and I must sing.
Singing, I will herald her coming.

I sing of Spring as she approaches.
And watch tender leaves glow rich green
And ferns unroll themselves
Unwrapping themselves like gifts
And watch my crocuses and daffodils
And hyacinths and narcissus
And tulips poke out one by one,
Perfect but oh, so short-lived!
And lilacs like pale dreams haunt the air
And perfume it so sweetly, I could swoon
From the lust and lucency of it all.

When Summer flowers tease bees
Into drunken ecstasy, they weave
Unsteadily through the air, humming
Sipping at the rich moisture
Of my plants, when I water them
Thirsty and grateful they are,
So why would they ever sting?
Sunstruck and dizzy, I keep cool,
Sipping water with lemons,
And I sing with the bees.
And hum in Summer.

But when the year tilts away
From the sun, warming her back,
It is then that my garden yields her store –
Burgeoning beans and basil,
And peapods bursting at the seams,
And pumpkins and squash trailing downhill.
Tomatoes ripening like voluptuous women
And taut eggplants tantalizing me with glowing purple,
And tricky green peppers beckoning me closer
And roses blooming unashamedly
And sunflowers yearning towards the sun
And it is in the Fall that things flourish,
And it is then that I flourish.

A creature of the seasons,
An accidental human, I.
But from wilting to flourishing,
I follow the Earth, and time
Swallows its own tail,
And eternity repeats its mantra:
Wilt and die, and grow and flourish
Over, and over, and over again.

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In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt: Flourish

South-Bound

South-Bound
©May 18th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

The land pulses with heat
And moist air, pregnant and brooding
With malligai and bougainvillaea
And chanpakam and rojapu.
The pure and sinful scent of chandanam
The heady perfume of ylang-ylang
The fragrance of Madras coffee
The aroma of steamed idli with sambhar,
And upma and paper-crisp dosai-chutney
All blend with memories of temple-bells
And camphor-scented rituals before the
Incense-intoxicated household gods.

Where girls go to school in two-plaited
Goody-goody-ness, speaking primly
To each other on buses that lurch on,
While they stand in starched
School-dresses, carrying bulging
Satchels on thin shoulders,
And gaze stiffly forward, despite
Suggestive remarks and frank stares
From shiftless and shameless louts;

Where dabba-wallahs carry tiffins
To and from school and workplaces and homes,
In muscle-melting heat, on sturdy bicycles,
Secure in their role as food-carriers,
Doing no harm, doing much good;

Where the emaciated mendicant,
Bent-backed and black from the sun
Comes to the door of house after house
Singing, “Bhavathii Bhiksham dehi,”
And the lady of the house approaches,
Tips a bowl of uncooked rice into his brass pot,
While her child watches from the door
Heart beating fast for the barefoot beggar,
Whom one must never turn away empty-handed,
Because all who come for food
Are from the Divine, and may not be refused;

Where temple bells ring on Holy Days,
And the chanting of fat Brahmin vadiyars
Weaves a moody spell in the mid-morning heat
That mingles with the radiant burst of marigolds
Forming garlands for the gods, or priests,
While starving men and dogs sit outside the gates
Some waiting, others rooting through trash;

Where puritannical prudery persists
And the tyranny of tradition holds sway,
Where rules are made, and followed blindly,
Unquestioningly, and no sense emerges
Save that one must uphold tradition;
Where kindness saves, and community
Knits lost people together during floods;

Where
dancers, musicians, thinkers
Create new worlds, rich with art;
Where technogeeks leave in droves
To find more sympathetic stomping grounds;

Where curd rice and pickles are enough
To keep body and soul together
In searing heat, and grinding poverty;

Where the sun beats down without mercy
And the rains slash down without ceasing,
Where the Bay and the Ocean
Drum incessantly against the land,
And the sun floods the waves in the early morn,
Strewing leaves of gold that skitter
Across the troughs and swells –
– This was the land of my youth. –

Where do you come from?
They asked, when I moved a few states Northward.
I answered, simply, “The South.”
And they said, Ah yes, I thought so.

Where do you come from?

They asked, when I moved across the ocean.
And I answered, “From India.”

But it is the South which beats in my body
Like a drum or a pulse.
And I shall return some day,
Unless the sea claims it first.

And if the sea does claim it,
I shall transform into a South Indian mermaid,
And swim home to the land under the sea.

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In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt:  South

Sun–Spring (Vid and Haiku)

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Sun–Spring
©May 16th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

Singing woods in Spring

Stippled leaves, dappled light, dog.

Swiftly, Earth spins, drunk.

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What the Healthy!

What the Healthy!
©May 15th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

I am tired of all things healthy
All this narcissistic absorption
In one’s food, and one’s skin
And hair, and whatnot!
All this measuring of waist
And hip, and chest, such rot!

Bring me palak, rich and green
With chunks of fat paneer,
And rich, creamy malai kofta
With fat, puffy naans, soft
And lovingly formed by the pudgy
Hands of the Indian baker
Standing proudly, making bread
In full view of all who eat as if starving
Everyone shoveling food madly
Into chatter-filled mouths.

Not us, though.

Observe us at the Indian restaurant:
Silently, silently we eat, books before us,
Occasionally pausing to share
A word, a phrase, a passage.
Then, we plunge back into food –
Food rich in cream
Swimming in it, it seems,
Food filled with nuts and such,
And butter, and oil and much
That’s not good for us.  Hurrah!
How come we glow with health, and life?

(Okay, with wider girths, perhaps?)

Bring me nice, fatty gulab jamun
Yes, and ice-cream too!
Splash ginger syrup on it ,
Plenty of sliced almonds
Pears and peaches and pistachios,
Yes, and melted chocolate,
And coconut flakes!
Let’s tuck in unhealthily, shall we?

Good.  Feel waist expand
Let out a nice sigh.
A discreet burp.
Slug down some cool water.
Then, keel over.

Healthy is my middle name.

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Written in response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt:  Healthy

Pearl Beyond Compare (Underestimate)
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Photograph©Vijaya Sundaram

Pearl Beyond Compare
(Underestimate)
©May 14th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

Good at estimating
Hazarding a guess,
He could tell at a glance
The true price of everything,
But the value of nothing,
And he’d beat it down
To get what he wanted.

But when he picked up a
Pearl beyond compare,
Lying innocent and quiet
On the crab-infested beach,
He thought it a pebble
Laughed at its lumpiness,
Its monstrous size, saw nothing
In its shining depths,
Did not imagine riches
In its shimmering glow.

And he threw it away.
Into the hungry sea
And bought some fake ones
That cost him a fortune,
And possibly, his wife.

And the sea?  She was glad
And she let him be.
She had received her due,
She would torment no one.

For what the sea releases
She takes back always, always.
For everything flows back
Home to the sea.

Do not underestimate her.
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P.S.  I was thinking obliquely about John Steinbeck’s book The Pearl, but my character tosses this metaphorical pearl back into the sea without even seeing what it is, whereas Kino hangs on to his literal (and metaphorical) Pearl of the World, and pays a huge price, which is, in its turn, completely different from what Matthew spoke on in the well-known parable (13:46).

 

In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt: Underestimate

Vis-à-Vis
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Photograph©Vijaya Sundaram, January 29th, 2016 (At the New England Aquarium)

In response to The Daily Post’s Photo Challenge:  Face


Vis-à-Vis
©May 14th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

Let me see you now
In the light of the glimmering water
Where fish swim swiftly, surely,
Like sparrows in a backyard, but we
Shall out-swim them, shall we not?

Let me see your eyes –
Inscrutable and bottomless
Full of sliced light, shimmering,
As you gaze at me, back-lit by blue –
I could drown in them.

Let me see you now
Face to face, clearly, not darkly
What do you see, my friend,
When you see me?

Do you wonder what I think of you?
Or, could it be that you dream
Merely of swimming free
Far from here, from all these eyes?

We shall face them all together
Standing face-to-face
Faced by the enormity of our fate
To be forever watched, seen, admired.

– Quick, let’s turn our backs on them all!

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Vision and Visions

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Photograph©By Vijaya Sundaram, April 10th, 2016

Vision and Visions
©May 14th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

It is what you do not see
When you walk, eyes fixed
On everything beyond, your
Footsteps leading you
Inexorably towards your
Future, meted out to you
In incremental doses by
A timid mind – yours –
That is what interests me.

Vision is tricky in a fog
Your aging eyes,
Their lenses losing shape
Ache with a longing
For clarity beyond doubt, yet,
When you see clearly,
With a little help, of course,
You trust not what you see.

Is seeing, perhaps, always
A matter of where you stand?
A question of certainty,
Even if the world revolves
Dizzyingly around your heels?
As you turn and turn,
And the shapes flow in and out
Of an insidious mist, do you whisper
Whom do I trust?  What is the truth?

Eyes see eyes in a turning world
Eyes all around, seeing endlessly
Seeing each other reflected
Endlessly in their orbs,
Eyes all the way into the past
Into the future, seeing-blind.
Tell me again, are you there?
Were you ever there?
And am I here, if I cannot see?

It is a dream of visions
We are the dreamers,
We are the dream
We are the seers
We are the seen.

Somewhere in another world
A sea without stars froze,
Where a young girl sang
Floating above the waves,
Playing her sitar,
But the song fades from mind

And a voice cries in the wilderness.
And somewhere, eyes flash.

And the Sleeper sleeps on.
Eyes closed, speaking softly
In her sleep, as the visions
Emerge, merge, submerge.

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In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt:  Vision

Wormhole (Survival by Chance)
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Photograph@Vijaya Sundaram, 2007

Wormhole
(Survival by Chance)
©May 12th, 2016
By Vijaya Sundaram

To reach its goal, sperm swims upstream
Poor little salmon, bursting free from
The urge to be washed away.
If it’s lucky, it’ll survive.
And then, if we’re lucky,
We shall see the light of day.
If not, meh, no big deal.
Someone will emerge from that
Moist dark tunnel, fighting all the way,
To breathe in cool gulps of new air,
Shivering and naked, but alive,
Human and whole, and save the world
Or perhaps, destroy it. 
Our future is dark, and we see darkly
But perhaps, we shall find meaning
And purpose, and oh, a wormhole
To wriggle into and out of,
To start out again, anew.
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P.S.  I know that photograph is not of salmon, but still … it’s fish! 

In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt:  Survival
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