Vijaya Sundaram

Poet, Musician, Teacher, and Amateur Visual Artist

What Matters (Portrait of a Study Hall in Middle School)

 

What Matters

(Portrait of a Study Hall in Middle School)

©May 13th, 2014

By Vijaya Sundaram

 

Twenty-six minds in a rectangular box

Six windows to see out of,

And one door to escape from:

 

Boxed in, we sit, attending

Attentive, studious, silent —

Almost, but not quite.

 

But the hum of thought flows

Through the spaces between desks

Collect in little pools of light.

 

Eyes gaze into space, catch mine

From time to time, glow in

Recognition:  I know you,

And I like you.  You’re all right.

(I think.)

 

The nods, the sidelong looks

Between peers, almost friends,

Some friends, some just classmates,

Catch at filaments of connection.

 

Heads bent over writing, over science, math

Over drawing, over Insurgent and Divergent

As if these stories bring back some need

To rebel, to fight, but against what?

And for what?

 

Some long to find causes,

Others laugh at them,

Mock those who act,

Who knows why.

It does not matter.  For some,

Reading equals being.  Others sit,

Twitching with dissatisfaction,

Mute, itchy.

 

Here, now, in Study Hall

In 8th Grade, at my school,

In my plant-overflowing, poster-splattered,

Blue and green, and maroon and red

Room, where music swells

From time to time, and

Laughter bubbles, and questions

Spill over every day, and where

Thought and effort crease

My students’ brows,

My Study Hall mutters itself

Into a state that resembles

Work and focus.

And that’s all that matters —

For now.

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Listening to Poetry

Listening to Poetry
©By Vijaya Sundaram
April 26th, 2013

The children listen, in a spell
As the words of the poem we
Read aloud together in class,
Unreel and hook them, unawares.

Poetry, that smiling looter
That thief of all cynical hearts
That bandit of their mundane minds
Captures them, binds them all, tightly.

For a moment, cynicism
Is suspended, pushed, held at bay
By words, written quite long ago
Among differently moulded minds.

Then, mundane memory floods back
And, unwilling to be found out,
They replace their masks and move on
To the next silly or sublime sphere.

If I could capture their quiet
Concentration, their absorption,
I’d create an essential oil
With which to make a sweet perfume.

I’d keep it at my lonely desk
Spray it into the air near me,
And inhale deeply when sudden
Unexpected despair grabs me.

I’d forget my ache, then, and smile
I’d remind myself that this is
Why I love to teach and why I stay:
Concentration concentrated,

The shared delight, the rich shaping
Of our mutual enjoyment:
Pleasure  distilled and stoppered in time
And fragrant in our memory.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The End ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~